Moving on has always been so hard for me. Especially when it comes to certain guys that have played a big role in my life. Let's just name the 2 I'm talking about moving on from. Josh and Daniel.
Josh: My first and only boyfriend who I've had a hard time letting go even though he only tried to use me. I mean, come on. he was my first boyfriend. We tried dating 2 times and he wanted things I wasn't giving up. But I saw him Tuesday and it didn't affect me at all like it normally does. I just saw him as another stranger. No big deal. Hallelujah!! :)
Daniel: Oh, everyone knows about him. He's the one who promised to always be my friend and now isn't for very stupid reasons. He hides from me like a child and is so immature despite the fact that he's 23 years old. Anyway, I saw him Friday and Tuesday and it didn't bother me one bit. I was ok to see him and I wasn't jealous and I didn't think, oh i want him still. It was just like hey, i used to be friends with him and now we've both moved on. It was the best feeling in the world.
Overall, I feel like I'm moving on from my past and it's great. I think the ultimate test would be Jason, Who I haven't seen in quite some time. I think of him often, but he played a big part in things. He'll always be important to me, but I hope I'm over him finally for good. And I have a certain person to think for this. Because this new guy in my life has made me realize that it didn't work out with all of them for a reason. And it makes my pain totally worth it.
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