You know, I've spent my whole life trying to figure out the "perfect" guy for me. I have a few things I'd like in a guy. I'd want him to at least believe in God and not do drugs or smoke. Alcohol: keep it to a minimum if any. But I realized that I expected so much more. But I've had crushes on almost any type of guy you can think of. I've liked drug addicts, alcoholics, Christians, and man whores for lack of better words. I've liked older and younger. And I feel like that shouldn't define who I like now anymore. But you see, I have a problem. There are so many wonderful guys in the world. And no, they're not romantic and they don't treat me like a princess when I'm near them. Heck, most of the are total jerks. But they're good people.
At one time, there was this older guy. He was the first guy I ever really liked. He was an alcoholic and he slept around. But i saw the good in him and we were friends. I ruined that like I always do but it showed me that I could love someone even if they did have problems that I didn't have. I've liked great guys too though. One guy i liked, he was almost perfect. He was funny, sweet, smart, loved music (and loved my favorite band), and he loved God. But then that made me realize that maybe i didn't deserve someone like him. he seemed too good, but he's an amazing person and maybe one day I'll get to see him again. I've liked a couple of younger guys. Oh, shocker. I dont want younger but i have slipped up and found 2 pretty great guys. Total opposites i might add. One's a drug user . The other is a football player. Both boys are so full of potential and they make my life a better place just by seeing them. I'm glad to call them friends.
No guy is ever gonna be perfect and I know that now. And i'm not looking for perfection. I want someone that screws up just as much as me. I want someone who can help me and i can help them. I wanna be weird and crazy, and I want them to be ok with that. I just want them to accept me for me. And fortunately, I've found plenty of wonderful people that do that :) Which means what? That I'm just gonna do what feels right to me and be myself. I'm not gonna push anything and I'm going to let whatever happens, happen. But I am going to think about it because hey, thats what I do. :)
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