Tonight was amazing. This whole weekend was fantastic. I just don't know how to explain it. But I realized a lot of things about myself which makes me so happy, yet scared at the same time. I am finally over the one person who I thought I couldn't live without. And I am over anyone who ever hurt me. Because they really just don't matter anymore to me. I realize now what a waste of time they really were. But they taught me about love so much. I really just can't stop crying right now because I am so happy that my life is good again. No, i'm glad that it's finally good. After 19 years, I finally have a good life.
I can't even explain these emotions I'm feeling right now. It's like I lost my best friend, but I gained a best friend. If that even makes sense. Because honestly, I feel like I finally have someone in my life who will never judge me. And maybe, just maybe I found someone I could be with forever or at least have a friend. That's scares the crap out of me too. That I really find someone I could easily see myself spending the rest of my life with. And I haven't even known him that long. And I know he probably doesn't like me in that way. But I just feel like it's meant to be. I really don't know. I've always heard you'll just know, right?? I really just gotta stop writing now haha :)
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