Insecurities.

I have alot of insecurities. Honestly, I wish they'd just go away but it's hard to forget about them when they've always been a part of who you are. I've always had this feeling that I'm just not good enough. I really don't know why, but I have. And here lately, it keeps smacking me in the face when I least expect it.

I really want to feel good enough for people. But there always seems to be those people who are better than me, prettier than me, smarter than me. And it drives me crazy and I just can't see how anyone would think I'm the best at some of those things. I'm actually really happy right now. My life is going great and I've made some great friends over the past year that have changed my life and will continue to change my life.

This may come as a shock to most people, but I feel like I'm where I need to be in life. Which is crazy since it seems like I really don't belong anywhere. But, I have these feelings that I've never really felt before and they scare me. I haven't told anybody about them either. NOBODY! I haven't really fully admitted them to myself yet. Because it really just freaks me out that I can feel this way. But I really wanna make sure these feelings are for real and not just a temporary thing. Oh, but I really hope they're permanent. It would make me so happy.

Well, enough about that. It's time for me to get to sleep :)