Untangle Me.

I had a very stressful day. It didn't start out that way though. It was a good morning. I went to church, a meal with my family, and then spent some time with my grandparents. Then, it hit! I get stuck driving to Grant to pick up my brother and sister and going to Lebanon for a birthday party for my cousin. Instant headache. I don't know what was going on with me today. I almost freaked out completely. I almost went to that point where I just give up on the things I want most. But I refuse to do it this time because I feel like this is something good.

I'm willing to take a risk on this and I've never been able to say that. Call me crazy, but it's how I feel. I feel like I got a few obstacles in the way, but if it's God's will, they'll go away :)

My life is changing drastically and it scares me. As I write this, I feel like crying. I don't know why. Funny, huh? I need to figure out my feelings because they're what's bothering me the most. My feelings for certain people are so mixed up which is making me want to run back to my past mistakes. I have nobody to talk to about this because I'm scared to even admit it to myself.....