So, I realized that I care about so many people that should otherwise really not mean anything to me. I don't think it's a bad thing though. I embrace that. That's one of the things I actually like about myself. I love the fact that I have a big enough heart to care about people and love them. And I don't really have to have a reason to feel that way about someone. You see, I have a friend that I really care about. More than I probably should. He's really important to me, but there's alot of reasons we'll only ever be friends. One reason is the fact that I have feelings for him as more than a friend, and I'm only a friend to him. But I'm ok with that. I'm more than ok with it. I'm happy about that. Because he gives me a reason to stay positive and it gives me proof that I can love someone without them feeling that same way in return.
It didn't take much for me to love him. He listened and he cared. Nobody's ever been that way with me so fast before. We clicked from the beginning and I know he's there for me thru anything at all. Which makes me really happy. Knowing I have that one person who will always be there for me. And he's so honest. I'm thankful for that :)
I'm just so excited that I let someone into my life again and that I'm not holding back anymore. I'm sure he knows I have feelings for him, but that's ok. Because I know that's all they'll ever be. Feelings. His friendship is more important to me than a relationship :)
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