So, my life has been pretty crazy the past couple of weeks. I unfortunately realized that I am not completely over my past like I thought I was. Which drives me crazy because i do not want that problem. I think it's a problem because when something has been in your life for around 5 years, then it's hard to just let go. I want one thing to stay the same when I know that it can't and I don't need it to. Especially not this.
I also have this crazy feeling of being alone. Yeah, I know I have friends. But I feel invisible to everyone. Like my problems don't matter. Which I know that they aren't important issues, but it would be nice to talk it out with people. But instead, I seem to be stuck talking it out by myself which does me no good.
There's this guy.... who made so much of an impact on my life. and it honestly scares me. Because I don't know how he did it in such a small amount of time. But all I know is that I miss him. I miss his optimism on life and his happiness. I miss him for far more reasons than I could explain. Do I think it's the end though? Yes and no. One part of me is telling me I'll never see him again and to hold on to my memories forever, but a bigger part of me keeps telling me not to give up hope. That he'll be back around and that I'll get that chance if it's meant to be. If not, then I'll at least have a friendship. I have no clue what to think... :(
I feel so stressed out over everything and I can't even begin to talk about it. Simply put, it's me against the world. Listen to Simple Plan's song titled Me against the world. And that's my theme song for the week...
Well that's all...
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