Call me crazy, but I am seriously crying my eyes out right now. Why? Since Forever released such a beautiful song at 11. Just about 30 minutes ago. I was having a rough day, but this made it all better. Yeah, music does that for me. All I needed was some reassurance that life was going to be okay. Here it was. I couldn't be more thankful than I am now.
I've honestly has a rough time these past few days. I don't know why and it scares me. I have my share of little problems, but they aren't anything major. Yesterday, I realized I was falling back into my depression. Which scares me. Because I never want to be there again. It's not something I can control. But I don't wanna go talk to a stranger because I have nothing to say. And I don't want to take medicine because it makes me feel weak. I just want things to be okay and I want to deal with my problems in a simple way.
This is the time where I'll start pushing people away. It's when I'll start staying to myself even more than I do now. Because I feel like I need to deal with my problems on my own. My biggest problem? I feel like I'm not good enough. I'm not good enough to be a friend or anything else. I'm not good enough to even exist. Not good, right? Tell me about it. I've tried to convince myself otherwise, but it's impossible at the moment.
I'm gonna figure things out and I'm going to make things right. i don't know how yet, but it has to happen.
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