The title only has some importance to this post. It's from my current favorite song "Meant To Be" by Cady Groves. It's definitely an amazing song and reminds me of how much talent she has. That's another story. You don't want to read about my opinions of artists. Trust me.
Right now, I'm torn between running away from this guy or just letting things happen. If it isn't obvious, I kinda like him a little more than I should. He's amazing from what I know. He's smart, funny, good... He's so much of what I always needed in my life, yet so much of what I didn't want. Which makes no sense. But it's hard to explain and it would take a lot of time to do that. So, for now.... Let's just say he's great. But it scares me too. Why? Because he notices me. And I mean really really notices me. I'm not just somebody he says hi to and walks off. He talks to me. He jokes around with me. He sees me which is an unusual thing. I'm not invisible to him and I can't seem to hide either. He looks at me and I feel something that doesn't make sense. I feel like he cares what I have to say. It's like he waits for me to respond to anything. I can say stupid things and he just laughs. I like this feeling, but it freaks me out more than anything.
It took me a long time to get over this other guy. Years really. And the crazy thing is that I had no feelings like the way I feel around this guy. I never had that connection, I guess I could say. This just feels different than any other time. Which makes the pressure that much more important. I can't screw up this time. I can't do that.
But in other news, here's that song I mentioned earlier:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=byQmj7hFYvQ
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