Meant To Be....

I feel like I have the worst luck in the world when it comes to guys. Here's why: Every time I really start to like someone, another girl shows up out of nowhere and gets them. How is that even fair? It drives me crazy.

I don't understand it. Especially not this time. I finally meet a guy that is just so different from everyone else. Things just feel different and look how it's turning out. He'll end up finding someone and I'll be left back at the beginning again. I'm just so tired of this happening.

Not only this latest guy, but what about the guy before him? This guy was amazing. I had more in common with him than alot of people. He's weird, funny, great. Yet, he gets a girl. And it's so hard to remember he's not available when I see him. Because he wants to talk to me. He wants to hug me. He likes talking to me. It hurts knowing all I can do is make friends with someone great. Nothing more.

I know I shouldn't care, but it's getting old. I watch these girls who do all the wrong things get exactly what they want. Everything works out just perfectly for them. It just makes me so angry. I'm starting to question whether it's worth being so good all the time. Why even try? I should just do what I want and not care about the consequences. It's pointless to even try anymore.