Something To Believe

I say this a lot, but I learned a few things or maybe just remembered them after forgetting them. Who knows? I just know that this break is exactly what I needed. I spent time with my wonderful family and didn't worry about classes for a while. It was amazing and I had a lot of fun.

To start off, I guess I'll start with my craziness over facebook. I wrote statuses that made it sound like I was talking to someone. Not true. I just had a small crush on this wonderful guy and it was great while it lasted. Sad news: he graduates soon and there's no way anything can come of this crush. Yeah, he might be interested in me but I can't open up in 2-3 weeks. Just not enough time for me to let anyone in. I hate that, but it's how it's going to be. He's a nice guy and it's a shame I don't get that chance, but I'm okay with it. It wasn't meant to happen and God has given me peace about it.

Second: I'm still debating on whether to change my major. The two things I"m interested in aren't offered at Tech though. So, I'm thinking I might just stick to this and see where it leads me. God put me here for a reason and I'm going to try it out. If all goes as planned though, I might continue my education in either occupational therapy or medical lab technology. I have a wide range of interests. Nothing wrong with that.

Third: I'm currently in the whole process of making my life a "NO GUYS" zone. The only guys that are allowed in my life are friends and family. Oh, not to mention the few attractive guys I see occasionally. I can admire their attractiveness. It's all good :) I just feel like "trying" to find someone isn't working and I shouldn't have to look. You don't find love. You fall into it. I've liked my share of guys which ranged from alcoholics, drug users, godly, redneck, etc. They were all good people though and I'll never think differently. They all helped me realize things about myself I never knew. There still happens to be this one guy who I'm slightly interested in and I"m just not going to worry about it. I'm letting things just happen because trying to rush things won't only just make it get messed up, but it'll make me look like a fool.

Fourth: Random, but I'm so SICK of hearing people say bad things about Twilight. I don't sit there and call you stupid for liking Harry Potter or Eragon or whatever else the heck is out there right now. So why don't you leave people alone? Are you jealous of their dedication to something or what? If everyone liked the same things in life, it would be pretty boring here. So please, shut the heck up. Okay, I'm good now lol :)

Fifth: Random again, but if you're a praying person, Please pray for my cousin Nikolas. He's in a battle for his life and I'm praying he makes it out okay. It would really be nice if you'd pray for my whole family. They all could use it.

Sixth: I'm ready to change some things about myself. First off, I'm wanting to lose some weight. I'm doing it for me too. I've realized that I'm so much luckier than a lot of people and i need to take care of myself physically because God didn't give me this body to hurt. Also, I need to learn to let people in. I have a hard time making friends and I just need to find those people who can handle my weirdness. Not many can. :)

Seventh: I feel good about myself right now. That doesn't happen too often. And you know what? I feel like this because of me. Not because of anybody else's help. It's a good feeling :)