I got everything I wanted (not needed) for Christmas and more. It's been a wonderful time and I'm so blessed. What did I get? Let's see: iPhone (which i never asked for), kindle (which I also didn't ask for), digital camera (a REALLY nice one), TOMS, converse, CDs, DVDs, $200 + gift cards amounting to $75. It's crazy how much I got and thinking about how much people spent on me. Did i deserve it? No. And I feel kind of guilty about having all of this actually. It puts me in a weird place. I feel like giving everything back and saying "thanks, but no thanks". I've never felt this way, but maybe it means I'm growing up?? I have no idea.
I loved spending time with family and going to church today. I'm ready to go back home to Cookeville though. I'm tired of the unnecessary drama and the feeling of not being important around certain people. I'm ready to just go back where I belong. Yep..... Where I belong. That's how I feel about good ole' Cookeville. That's my home and I've never been happy like I am there.
This is where this gets a little complicated. I saw someone today that I didn't want to see. He drives me nuts and makes me feel like a jerk at the same moment. Yes, we used to be friends. No, I will not talk to you anymore because you're a jerk. Somehow, after all its said and done, I feel like a jerk. I'm sure I'll post something else about this tomorrow, but for now I'm going to say I have mixed emotions about the whole encounter. I guess I just need to grow up and act like a normal person and forget about the past. Too bad my life doesn't work that way.
Overall, my Christmas was very great and I can't wait for next year because it's going to be about giving for me :)
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