EVERYTHING has changed.

Well, my last post was crazy I'm guessing. It was written on December 28th and things drastically changed on the 29th and have continued to change since then. It's funny how those things work. I guess I'm going to just jump into things.

I've met someone who has made me realize that I am worth it. That I am just as good as everyone else and that I deserve so much more than I thought i deserved. I honestly used to hate myself and I thought I deserved nothing. I judged myself so harshly. But this person, he made me see that I am good enough for someone. He wanted to be around me over all those other "prettier" girls. He talked to me. He looked at me. He sat beside me. He picked me over them. How great is that?? :) I know it's crazy, but my confidence has went up tremendously.

You might not see things this way, but I have to say that I was going after guys that were either too good for me or not good enough. Those too good for me made me feel just as bad about myself as the ones that weren't good enough. In my eyes, I was hurting in the same way. This guy... well he's different. He's so much like me, yet so different. he's not too good, he's not too bad. he's just in the middle. He makes me totally feel worth it. Yeah, this is all crazy considering I've only spent 2 days with him. It might be the only 2 days I'll ever spend with him. I'm thankful for it though. He helped me so much and I can't believe it. I'm so overwhelmed and happy about it.

God saved me just in time from something horrible. I'm not going to say what it was. You can ask and I might tell. I really don't know, but I do know that I've never felt like this before and it makes me so excited. 2012 started out right for me. I love my life. I love myself. I'm finally seeing change. I have him to thank for that.