Stress... Not Good.

I've been really stressed out here for the past few days. I have an exam coming up Wednesday that I haven't had time to study for. I also still haven't been able to move. I was supposed to get a call today, but that hasn't happened yet. I need to get settled in somewhere before I go to New York. I would really hate to have to cancel at the last minute. I want to go, but at the same time I don't know if I really should go.

I feel like everything is piling up at once. It's driving me crazy and I hate that everything is changing all at the same time. I'm currently at the point of considering this my last semester at Tech. I like it here, but I feel like the only reason I'm staying is because I'm comfortable here. I know people and I have friends. I don't really want to do social work though. Endless paper work and hearing all those stories of lives that have been full of hurt and disappointment would only make me more depressed than I already am. I see that now. I was just trying to do something that I could get a degree in easily. It turns out it's not so easy when I'm not into it. At all.

Honestly, I just want to get into my car and drive until I can't drive. I want to get away from everybody and everything. I can't take the pressure right now and I feel like everything is just collapsing around me. It's been one of those days where it's "me against the world." I just need a little time to breathe. I'm suffocating.