How To Love.

If you've paid attention, you know the past few weeks have been crazy for me emotionally. I screwed up and somehow it all turned out okay. I'd like to think the big man upstairs for that one. All I did was pray. There wasn't anything else that I could possibly do. I screwed up big time. No joke. You have no idea. I'm so thankful things worked out though. I knew I was totally in the wrong for the whole thing and I felt so stupid for letting my insecurities get to me. There will be no more of that, I hope.

Back to what I originally wanted to write about.....

I'm so blessed. I have a crazy family, awesome friends, and just a bunch of lovely people in my life. I'm not a very social person. I don't think I ever was. If I block you out, don't take it to heart. Sometimes I just need my alone time. But anyway..... I have wonderful people in my life. I love them all dearly. Sure, they drive my crazy sometimes but that's normal. I wouldn't have it any other way.

Here's where I'd like to talk about love. Yeah, get over it. I've loved alot in my life. I've had my heart stomped on by a few people. I've watched people walk out on me that told me they'd never leave. It hurt bad. I'm okay though. You know why? Because I'm a strong person. Even though they left, I still loved them. You can't stop love. I did learn that I'm better off without them though. They came into my life as lessons. I learned alot. I thought at one point that the lesson was to not love. I was wrong. It helped me learn what love was. It helped me to recognize someone amazing when they were right in front of me.

I found this picture today. At first, I thought of someone very dear to me. That was my initial thought all day. It made it to the lock screen of my phone. I realized though that it could easily be a quote directly from Jesus. Read it. "None of your scars can make me love you less." That's so true. He loves us. Even though we're broken and messed up people. Our scars don't take away his love. He loves us so much. We should be the same way with the people in our lives. We all have scars. That shouldn't determine the amount of love we receive. The same goes for giving. Just give that some thought.

I'm not going to put some amazing bible verse because that's honestly just not me. I love the bible, but I don't read it that often. If I make myself read it, I'm just fulfilling the whole "a good christian reads the bible." I'm going to read the bible when the Lord wants me to. This is a whole new story though... I'm going to bed now.

Goodnight. I love you.