Today's been bearable. That's all I can say. I'm having a really hard time and I feel like I'm going to start crying at any moment. I was sitting in church this morning and almost lost it. Everything reminds me of him. Knowing he doesn't feel the same way anymore kills me. I don't know what I did wrong. It had to be something that I did. A part of me just won't believe it. The way I feel around him can't be nothing. I just don't understand how everything felt so right with him. Then he basically decides I'm not good enough. Talk about hurt. I'm hurt in ways I can't even explain.
I guess I was asking for it. I've liked him for around a year. I never thought he'd ever like me anyway. Okay, maybe I did. Then it actually happened and it doesn't work. I didn't even get a chance to prove I was worth it. I thought we could have been good together honestly. I just don't understand how this feeling I have means nothing at all. I just don't believe it. It's going to take a LONG time for me to get over this. I really wish I didn't have to.
I guess I should be happy with our friendship and I am. It's just that I think we could be so much more. Guess I was wrong.....
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